If Not for This
Been away from the blog for a good long time. We are almost into March and this is the first post of the new year. The academic year is half over at work, daylight saving time and the blooming flowers of spring are right around the corner, AIDS/LifeCycle is just about three months away, and my 50th birthday is in 27 days. 27 days. Time flies, and it seems the older we get, the faster it flies. I had a conversation with my mom over lunch today about how inconceivable it is that I’ll be turning a half century. She is probably the only person in more disbelief than me that I will be this age, especially since I am her “baby” and always will be.
I’m thrilled with the age that I am, the richness of this life and the love that I’ve been blessed with from so many. Sure, I wish I had less physical pain, that my body worked like it did when I was younger. I could have tended my money better, put more away for retirement. And there’s the children I never had.
Rather than focus on regrets, should haves, what might have been and the like, these days I’ve been thinking often about how we each come to where we are in our lives. Each step we take, decision we make, puts us on a specific path. If not for a Type II diabetes diagnosis 15 years ago, then I may not have found cycling, reclaimed my health, traveled all the roads I have and made incredible friendships along the way. Or found my way to AIDS/LifeCycle, to fighting for the end to HIV and AIDS, to knowing I’m saving lives and making a difference in the lives of many.
My past relationship with this blog has been to write infrequent, lengthy posts about life on my bike, in the “love bubble” community of AIDS/LifeCycle, overcoming obstacles, recognizing growth – the stuff life is made of. For the next few months, I’m going to give shorter, more frequent posts a shot. No guarantee. Seems I have a passion and penchant for telling the whole story, at least as I see it.
Stay tuned. On more than one occasion, I’ve had a conversation with someone who shared with me, “If not for reading your blog post…”